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i asked to see hell...
by Georgina Teyrovsky, experiencer.
(Georgina Teyrovsky of Hayward, Ca., fell into a 4 1/2 day coma in 1969 and had a NDE.
She wrote this account in 1989. In 2004, she began speaking at meetings of the International Association of Near-Death
Studies.)
In one instant I knew that my "Guardian Angel" was with me. He
was not visible to me, but I just knew he was present next to me. When I thought out a question, he knew it instantly.
His answers, I also absorbed instantly. Without words, in any language, just clear thought for thought, idea on idea,
telepathically.
While my body was lying in a coma on a hospital
bed in a critical condition with an infectious disease, my spirit went through a near-death experience.
The memory of it still is so fresh in my mind!
My guardian angel wanted me to let him know what
I wished to learn. I thought, "I wish to see what hell and purgatory, and perhaps the heavens, look like." Is it something
like our Catholic description indicates? The burning fires, burning souls or bodies, little devils milling around.
My guide (angel) smiled. I felt him smiling
over my naivete. I knew he would take me there. There was no fear on my part, not even excitement. I had a feeling of
detachment over my existence, over personal feelings, or over my body that was left so very sick in the hospital bed. There
was this peace, timelessness and trust – in my guide and in me.
I did not have feelings that my guide was illuminated
or lit. Not seeing him, I pictured him as a man, somewhat older and with a reassuring manner… a loving, caring being.
Very soon I recognized that he had been with me all my life.
When in a difficult situation, always came this
spark of a thought, saving me, giving me courage, inspiring me with words and ideas that guided me out of danger and difficulties.
Only I only thought it was me, my smartness, my courage! There I recognized I had always had help and guidance…
and I had called it "good luck!"
We started to float toward distant spaces.
As we sped with unknown velocity, I felt secure in whatever body it was. It felt like I was expanding and at the same
time becoming more porous, less dense, something like a cloud or a mist. The spaces through which we were passing became
enormous.
Perhaps I should say at this point that it is
extremely difficult to address my experience with words, as that world of another dimension, with everything connected, is
so different and beyond what we know, hear or read, or the way we absorb our world with our five sense. It seems impossible
to describe it; I can only try.
The spaces through which we were floating were
so enormous that prior to that moment I did not have the capacity for it in my mind. To describe it - in "terrestrial"
terms – we were flying at the speed of light or faster, in the speed of a thought into a realm of galaxies (ever more
porous and expanding themselves. We were becoming part of the endless cosmos.
My guardian angel became part of me. Sort
of dwelling in my thoughts "as always?"
We started to pass through these enormous spaces.
In great distances appeared isolated beings, motionless, stuck in time, enormity of loneliness. Parts of such
isolated beings were missing. The bodies reminded me of the Michelangelo paintings on the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel
in the Vatican.
I expressed my astonishment.
The explanation came: it is the isolation from
other souls that is the damnation in itself. The absence of Love is the damnation. And it is Love that is the
fulfillment of life itself, the purpose, the happiness!
"Remember," said my guide. "It’s the
love we feel for others and others feel for us. Whenever we say prayers for others and others pray for us, and then
there are good deeds. Those are the only things we take with us into the other world… into the other dimensions.
"Let everybody knows who wants to listen"!
"What about the missing parts of those damned
souls? Why are they missing?"
In an instant, I was filled with the answer: "This
world is otherwise invisible to you. Also, it is of such substance that you could not understand it yet. So in
order to let you perceive this place, we have to symbolically make it visible to you! The missing hands, heads and parts
symbolize for you the unfulfilled tasks, unfilled purpose of their lives, mistakes of these beings.
I expressed my surprise at these "frozen forms,"
that some were upside down or sideways in all directions. "There is no gravity here, there is no up or down as it is
on Earth.
"So there is no fire in the hell, no flames, no
heat as we saw it painted in some medieval paintings," I responded.
Again I could feel my guide smiling.
"Fire, heat is energy; love needs energy, effort
and care. If anything, it would be expressed in such terms as freezing, isolation, and loneliness.
"These souls are stuck in eternity. Nobody
prays for them, nobody loves them, they have so little love, concern, interest, desire, or care in them – nearly no
energy left!"
I could feel the desperation of those forlorn,
forgotten souls beyond human imagination – out of reach, so distant!
I promised myself I would inform - whoever lets
me tell them – what important powers lie in prayer and LOVE. Under love, I understood, "unconditional love."
****************************************************** what Jesus really said
about sin & evil... by Rev. Jenni Brangle, non-experiencer, Spiritualist minister, medium, teacher, healer, from
http://Rev_Jenni.tripod.com
Sin…Webster’s
definition states that sin is an offense against religious moral law or an action that is or is felt to be highly reprehensible.
It goes on to say that sin is a transgression of the law of God.
And in the Encyclopedia Britanica – sin
is a moral evil as considered from a religious standpoint. In Judaism and Christianity, it is regarded as the deliberate
and purposeful violation of the will of God.
Let’s look a bit farther back in history
for some additional thoughts on sin. the ancient Aramaic language and culture that Jesus taught in, the terms “sin”
and “evil” were archery terms. When the archer shot at the target and missed…the scorekeeper yelled
out the Aramaic word for sin. It meant that you were off the mark---take another shot. The concept of sin was
originally to be a positive mental feedback. You missed the mark…so realign and try again.
Hmmmmmmmm... when you become conscious and aware
of your inaccuracy you have the option to reconsider and try again. And by the way…where the arrow fell when it
missed the target was, in Aramaic, referred to as evil.
The Hebrew and Greek words which are translated
as sin also mean – failing to hit the target.
In ancient Sumeria, Sin was the father of the
sun God, Shamasa and in some myths, the father of Ishtar. Nanna, the sumerian name for the moon God referred to the
full moon and Su-En, later shortened to Sin was designated to the crescent moon.
So where did the idea of original sin that hear
of in many mainstream religions come from? I don’t know. But personally, I don’t think I buy it.
Now let’s look at some other theories. The
following is an excerpt from Conversations With God and is God speaking to the author.
"The alleged state of imperfection in which you
are said to come into this world is what your religionists have the gall to call original sin…Some of your religions
have built up whole theologies around this misconception…Yet, in order to justify the idea of a punitive God, your religions
needed to create something for me to be angry about…Stop- you’d better do something about all of this…or
you’ll go straight to hell. This, in the end, may do nothing to mollify a weird, vindictive, angry God but it does give
life to weird, vindictive, angry religions."
So…..this theory implies there is no sin…..which
brings up a very interesting question. If there’s no sin, what did Jesus die for?
According to one theory, Jesus died and rose again
so that we might know the truth about him and hence, about us. His act was meant as a demonstration of who we really
are. Every act is an act of self-definition. That is true for you and it was true for Jesus. Jesus was a
divine master who possessed absolute understanding of the truth, about himself and about God.
He wished to share this truth with all the world.
Thus he said, “I and the Father are one.” He also proclaimed us to be his brothers, and said, “Have
I not said, Ye are gods?”
With regard to his miracles, he also said, “Why
are you so amazed? These things and more will you do also.”
This theory states that Jesus did not die for
our sins, but rather, to demonstrate that we are sinless. We were made in the image and likeness of God, and Jesus kept
trying to tell us so. But few believed him. He knew that only a real demonstration of Godliness could prove convincing.
Well, he convinced many people that he is God
all right, but quite a few missed the point that we are all the same thing. We started worshipping him, and that wasn’t
what he had intended.
In The Four Agreements, the first agreement says “Be
impeccable with your word”. Now, broken down to the Latin origins of the word, impeccability means – without
sin.
In this book, it states that religions talk about
sin and sinners but according to Toltec wisdom, a sin is anything that you do which goes against yourself. Everything
you feel or believe or say that goes against yourself is a sin. You go against yourself when you judge or blame yourself
for anything. When you are impeccable, you take responsibility for your actions, thoughts and words, but you do not
judge or blame yourself. Now from this point of view, the whole concept of sin changes from something moral or religious
to something commonsense.
All these different theories and definitions can
be quite confusing----and to some, may be disturbing. They can be disturbing because to some these are explanations
that they might never have heard before. Mainstream society, our culture, teaches us one thing and we have a tendency
as humans to except that one thing as our reality. The point I’d like to make is this. Be aware…….gain
knowledge……look at all realities…..tand try on different ideas to see how they feel. Then choose what
fits for you.
In my life, I choose to look upon sin as
“missing the mark”. I believe that if I know what the target is…..and I keep shooting for it and keep
it in sight…….then I’m doing allright.
We need to keep our eyes on the goal and
be gentle with ourselves if and when we under or overshoot the target. My God/Goddess/All That Is…is huge, neverending,
kind, gentle and most of all, made of Light and Love. How big is your God?
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Wrongs which cause injury to others
require repentance, forgiveness and restoration of wholeness. When one has hurt someone else, unless she apologizes to that
person, repents for the hurt caused and is forgiven, she will carry that burden into the spirit world. If someone has something
against a person who has not apologized, progress is impeded in the spirit world.
When we
can recognize the hurt brought to others, and make amends for it by seeking forgiveness, then healing of the spirit can take
place. This liberates both parties for greater love and spiritual growth.
A re-orientation
of one's life toward God and love at any point has great value. If a person can take this step while still on earth, and in
particular can make amends for any wrong done, this will do much to enhance his status in the spirit world. The next step
for the last minute repenter is to preserve this new orientation and upon arrival in the spirit world to do whatever is necessary
to continue growth there.
The quality of the energy that we maintain is affected by whether
our intentions and actions lead us toward, or separate us from, goodness and God.
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coming to terms with oneself...
by PMH Atwater, experiencer/researcher/author, http://www.cinemind.com/atwater
For the first time I looked upon myself to see what possible
form or shape I might have, and to my surprise and joy I had no shape or form at all. I was naught but a sparkle of
pure consciousness, the tiniest, most minuscule spark of light imaginable. And that is all I was. I was content
that way, without ego or identity, pure, whole, and uncomplicated. Within that nothingness I had become, I simply existed,
ecstatic in perfect bliss and peace, like perfection itself and perfect love. Everywhere around me were sparkles like
myself, billions and trillions of them, winking and blinking like on/off lights, pulsating from some unknown source.
I would have existed in that state of bliss forever had
an irritation not made itself known, like an old sore deep within me; then energy waves burst forth from that deep old sore,
and with them came the life of Phyllis, playing itself out from birth to death.
I remembered hearing stories of past life reviews, a
particular feature of dying common to all, where your life passes before you at great speed for final review. Remembering
this, I expected some kind of theatrical showing of my life as Phyllis or perhaps something like a television replay, but
such was not the case. Mine was not a review, it was a reliving. For me, it was a total reliving of every thought
I had ever thought, every word I had ever spoken, and every deed I had ever done; plus the effect of each thought, word, and
deed on everyone and anyone who had ever come within my environment or sphere of influence whether I knew them or not (including
unknown passersby on the street); plus the effect of each thought, word, and deed on weather, plants, animals, soil, trees,
water, and air.
It was a reliving of the total gestalt of me as Phyllis,
complete with all the consequences of ever having lived at all. No detail was left out. No slip of the tongue
or slur was missed. No mistake nor accident went unaccounted for. If there is such a thing as hell, as far as
I am concerned this was hell.
I had no idea, no idea at all, not even the slightest
hint of an idea, that every thought, word, and deed was remembered, accounted for, and went out and had a life of its own
once released; nor did I know that the energy of that life directly affected all it touched or came near. It's as if
we must live in some kind of vast sea or soup of each other's energy residue and thought waves, and we are each held responsible
for our contributions and the quality of "ingredients" we add.
This knowledge overwhelmed me!
The old saying, "No man is an island," took on graphic
proportions. There wasn't any heavenly St. Peter in charge. It was me judging me, and my judgment was most severe.
As when I previously realized my body was not me, I also
came to realize Phyllis wasn't me either. She was a personality or a facade I had once projected. She was an extension
of me, a part I had played, a role I had acted. She was a particular development I was engaged in, a particular focus
I had become, and that focus had not developed quite as planned.
I was disappointed and saddened at this, but I took interest
and satisfaction from one characteristic she had repeatedly displayed, and that was her desire to try and try again.
She always did something, even if unwise. She was not one to sit back and wait upon others or capricious fate.
She was relentless in her determination to make of herself a better person and to learn everything possible. She was
a doer, willing and able, a person who would reach and stretch. This pleased me and at last I pronounced her personality
good and the life she had lived worth its living.
During this judgment process, "The Void" in which I dwelt
began to pull away and separate from my dining room in Boise. These two worlds separated as they had previously merged,
but I was still next to the light bulb, having never at any time altered my location or the space I occupied.
Only my environment had changed, not I. As I looked
down at the body of Phyllis on the floor, I was so filled with love and forgiveness that I floated ever so gently back into
her body, moving as I went on a layer of large bright sparklers such as those used on the Fourth of July. Again, I reentered
through the top of the head, feeling the need to shrink and then squeeze back into the tight form Phyllis's body offered.
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throwing rocks at cars / of sins and mistakes…. By JDBourdon
When I think of the absolute dumbest thing I ever
did – and mind you, this is no task for an ordinary mortal, so I could be wrong – I come back to a time when I
was tossing rocks at cars.
It was close to a half-century ago, when
I was I was maybe seven, and was on a small hill overlooking a road. I began lobbing dirt clumps and small rocks at unsuspecting
motorists. I hit one, the motorist circled around the block, found me, and hauled me to my parents. Nothing much happened
beyond that, probably because of my age.
But I remember something about that incident
of utmost importance: I did not throw those rocks in anger or with malice. I was just a kid throwing rocks.
How will all this play out in the primary dimension,
according to the NDE Paradigm?
I’ll know that I meant no harm. But I will
recognize the danger of what I’d done, and how that rock-tossing affected everyone. I’ll know how that motorist
felt – was he frightened, angry? I’ll know his mood that day, how much he valued his car, how this changed his
day, and how that in turn altered other’s lives.
I’ll know whether he considered calling
the police, his reaction to finding some kid was the culprit. I’ll know my parents’ reactions – their fear,
their relief no harm had been done, the sincerity of their apology to the motorist. I suspect I’ll know I had done something
wrong, and I had disappointed my parents.
I will hold myself responsible for all of this…
yet I will not be judged and condemned by "god" or any external force for that act or what followed. And knowing my motivation,
I will know I should not judge myself.
One might say it was a "bad" day for the motorist,
and a "good" one for me, since I wasn’t punished. But from the Paradigm viewpoint, there was no good nor bad, merely
opportunities for all.
For the driver, it was an opportunity to show
understanding and compassion – this despite the fact that he could have been injured or killed by my senseless act.
And in the primary dimension that motorist will experience the incident again, and he’ll know, absolutely know, that
I meant no harm. He’ll know that he had mercy on me. He will know my parents’ fears and their gratitude.
That incident, seemingly bad in his life, will
have been a triumph for him.
Suppose I’d been a bit older but just
as oblivious, and I’d hit the car? Or the driver had decided to respond in a different manner? What would be the
cosmic truth of that?
Nowadays, under different social standards, I
might well have been arrested and sentenced to some punishment. I’d probably be angry at the motorist, because even
though it was all my fault, I meant no harm.
But in the life review, I’d know these truths:
I mustn’t judge either myself or the driver. All that will matter to me is how I reacted to what happened.
The motivations of the driver – whether he sincerely felt punishment was needed for my own good, or whether he wanted
to "get back" at me – will be known to me, but they won’t matter at all. They will, of course, be of utmost
importance to the motorist - because his mission is his life..
The meaning of the incident in cosmic terms is
that it was nothing more or less than a life challenge – another opportunity – for all of us, from our
different life points.
How we reacted, what we did – these are the measures of life in transitory material terms. Right or wrong,
"sin" or "morality," even "legal" and "illegal" – these will be ancillary, the mere set-up for what matters. Cosmically,
all that will matter is the motivations behind how each of us, individually, dealt with our challenges/opportunities.
This is the revelation of NDE life reviews.
It is inescapable, our common fate. Every thought,
every moment of life, will be experienced again… but seen clearly, weighed by entirely different understandings than
materialist/religionist concepts.
These understandings make up the NDE Paradigm.
But the reward of living by these cosmic standards is not confined to the bye and bye; they can be realized daily in this
dimension.
Shakespeare wrote, "This above all: to thine own
self be true."
It is impossible to be true to ourselves unless
we recognize we are first and foremost spiritual beings… and not the persona we’ve created. Being true to
oneself necessitates living in alignment with cosmic consciousness, and doing our best to apply this wisdom to our unique
daily situations.
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